Rambling

Right, so the first post's been done, and now I can safely ramble about about until I feel the need to be funny again. Of course, I always feel the need to amuse, so I could bring my ramblings in the form of a bit of prose. The problem with that is, I want to make really clear this isn't a story.

So, I used to have a real good friend. The kind you always hang around with at school, and after as well if possible. I considered them my best friend. Well, the feeling was apparently not mutual. We both went through a bit of a hard time and no matter how much I tried to fix it, or strenghten the relationship, or I don't know... try to share my life with them, the friendship died in an ugly way. This is about one and a half year ago. Somehow I can't seem to wrap my head around time, so I couldn't say for sure.
Either way, the friendship ended, and slowly but surely I started to realise things. My best friend had had no less than three groups of friends, which they kept strictly seperated. They never told me much of anything about themselves. They thought I complained a lot, but never said that to my face. In fact, when I needed someone to talk to, and I talked to them, they thought I was complaining and whiny. They advised another friend to stay away from me. They accused me of not being interested in them, when I gave them all the opportunity to talk, I'd always be listening, but they never said anything. When I told them about the difficulties in my personal life, they turned it into a contest of grief. And last but not least, at a certain point I developed a crush on them, and two weeks (don't believe my sense of time) after I told them they made sure to tell me at every opportunity how happy and how in love they were with their new and true flame.

Today I listened to a song I quite like. They sent a link to it to me ages ago, when the friendship was already on the dead side. I told them; "Great. I know this song, I love it. But now I'll always think of you when I hear it." They told me I was being dramatic and that I should stop whining. Well. I don't know what exactly they said, but that was the gist of it. And guess what? I listened to it today and I thought of them.

What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.